Man seeking woman for something real, intentional, and built to last.

Dating me comes with context, and I believe honesty matters more than pretending to be simple.

I’ve had some challenging experiences in my past — including harassment and retaliation related to reporting serious crimes against nations and children — which have made me cautious about who I allow into my life. I believe everyone should be thoughtful about the people they trust, and I’m no exception. I’ve learned that even those who call themselves family or seem trustworthy can sometimes be the biggest frauds.

For example, the person who claimed to give birth to me then seemingly signed me up for a christian hate fantasy so she could fit into her social group. She knows the truth; I had to piece it together myself. She had me circumcised as an infant, called me a christian when she was not, and then she and her friends played games with me for decades, all while I believed she was the one person who truly cared — a mom. That’s a harsh lesson in this broken nation.

She subjected me to physical and emotional abuse as a boy and was gangstalked before I hit puberty. It took me a long time to realize that my confidence was shattered because of the people who groomed and trained me. When I tried to teach myself and connect with girls my age in high school, humiliation rituals were all too common. The neighborhood I grew up in felt like a cage — a childhood prison.

It took me a while to understand why some interactions felt off, or why certain people seemed to know more about me than they should before I started blogging and unloading my trauma. I now realize it was because the person who pretended to give birth to me was doing so with the intention of causing me struggles later in life. She and her social group were involved in anti-Christian activities, and they paid her to label me as Christian and abuse me accordingly.

She subjected me to childhood abuse that shaped me for decades, and I still experience triggers from it. Only recently have I been able to fully understand the impact of those experiences and move forward with clarity instead of avoidance.

Some of what I’ve lived through involves failures at both the institutional and societal levels. I used to internalize everything, especially since I contacted numerous authorities. The trauma pushed me into poverty and homelessness. After reporting crimes against children, false charges were filed against me, and I was sent to jail — all retaliation for speaking out. Even though they spent all those years putting their hate and ill intent towards me I stay determined to provide something better. The experiences gave me insight into some of the problems plaguing this country and others.

Thank you for reading all that, all that to say, that the gang they were affiliated with has been harassing and other retaliations that you, as someone wanting to be intimiate with me, need to be aware of.

Could I lie to someone just to get attention or physical intimacy? Probably — but that’s not who I am, and not what I’m looking for. I want a connection where honesty is the baseline, where trust is mutual, and where both people feel safe being fully themselves. I know now, not addressing these issues were what led to a lot of the faux relationships I did have and hopefully if you were abused as a child maybe some items click for you also. It was systemic experimentation in abuse for others entertainment faciliated by corruption.

If reading this makes you step away, that’s okay — honesty should filter, not persuade. I’m looking for a woman who wants a real relationship, one where emotional closeness and physical intimacy grow naturally. Take your time and reach out only when it feels right.